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June 21st, 2006
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| Okay, so, here is some news. I start college in the Fall (hopefully). I picked up a new occasional thing that I do. I'll give you a hint. Has to do with Camels. I love my boyfriend more than anything. I have a bunch of new cd's. My favorites so far are Rammstein and Tool because they kick ass. I got some new computer programs that I can't wait to try out. My cat is getting really fat. My grand-daddy has Alzheimer's and he doesn't even remember me most of the time so that sucks. I have two new knives. I think one of them is illegal though so uhm... never mind that. I made some new pictures and they can be found at my deviantART account. And for you lazy bums here are the links to the pictures : http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/3413 http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/3424 I finally got my license so w00t for me. I love Pocky and cannot wait until I get some again. I haven't watched T.V. that much these past few days for some odd reason. I feel useless. I don't feel like getting up in the morning. I need to do more art but I have no motivation. I am a sexy cow. It's all about me. A) First, recommend to me: 1. a movie: 2. a book: 3. a musical artist, song, or album: 4. a thing to waste my money on: 5. A place to go on Vacation: 6. A good restaurant: (B) I want everyone who reads this to ask me three questions, no more, no less. Ask me anything you want. (C) Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends to ask you anything. | ||||||||||||
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blarg >April 29th, 2006
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| ((If its over 40, you ARE spoiled)) (x) own car ( ) cell phone ( ) own phone line (x) own bathroom (x) own room (x) 2+ story house ( ) built in pool (x) guest house ( ) game room (x) TV in your room Total = 6 (x) full+ bed (not sure I know what that means) ( ) more than 20 pairs of shoes ( ) 10+ things from a designer store ( ) good grades ( ) expensive sunglasses ( ) name brand purse ( ) ipod ( ) xbox (x) ps2 (x) mp3 player (was a present.) Total = 3 ( ) range rover ( ) basketball hoop ( ) air hockey table ( ) pool table ( ) ping pong table ( ) fooz ball table ( ) trampoline ( ) live on a lake or pond ( ) own a pair of skies ( ) own a snowboard Total = 0 ( ) has a boat ( ) has a jet ski ( ) has a beach house or cabin (x) only child (x) stereo system in bedroom (x) dvd player in room (does the ps2 count?) ( ) 100+ dvd's (x) gets $50+ for allowance each month (if my parents are feeling generous then maybe) (x) goes shopping every month (for food and socks) ( ) shops at Abercrombie Total = 5 ( ) goes snowboarding or skiing every week (x) 2+ family cars (x) a mom AND a dad ( ) perfume/cologne (x) aim ( ) msn ( ) yahoo ( ) 5+ trophies/awards (x) own digital camera (from wal-mart) (x) walk in closet Total = 5 ( ) electric scooter ( ) dirt bike ( )4-wheeler(doesn’t work) (x) guitar/drums(my dad’s and I don’t know how to play it ( ) hammock ( ) been on a +2 cruises ( ) traveled out of the country ( ) personal fit trainer ( ) expensive jewelry ( ) met a celebrity Total = 1 (x) straightener/curling iron (I used to have long hair) ( ) gets hair done/nails/spas ( ) on/was on a varsity team for school ( ) own batting cage ( ) 100+ in wallet/purse right now ( ) own savings account (x) 1+ best friends (boyfriend :D) ( ) been to the Caribbean ( ) been to Europe ( ) been to Hawaii Total = 2 ( ) been to new York ( ) shopped in Seattle ( ) eaten at the space needle in Seattle ( ) been on the Eiffel tower in Paris ( ) been on the statue of liberty in new York ( )been on honor roll for 2+ years ( ) went on a trip for sweet 16 birthday(didn’t even have a small party) (x) lives on private property(parent’s of course) ( ) license (permit soon to get license though) ( ) moved 3+ times Total = 1 (x) sports car (mustang count?) ( ) hot tub (x) pet(s) ( ) ranch ( ) verizon ( ) cingular ( ) sidekick mobile ( ) razor cell phone (x) been to 5+ states in the us (x)don't have a job ( )100+ buddies on messenger Total = 3 ( )alarm clock (x) home cooked meal almost every day ( ) eat out almost every day ( )been in a limo ( )own camcorder ( )own laptop computer (x) own desktop computer (x)someone loves you total = 3 Grand total=30 | ||||||||
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oh so sleepyApril 28th, 2006
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| I'm an idiot. No one reads these things. So happy crappy poopy that I could scream. Gonna graduate in a couple weeks. W00t W00t for me! Haven't had a shower in two days so I'm feeling really icky. Pulled a neck muscle last night dunno how but I did. My cat is getting fat. I still hate my mom's chihuahua and our outside dog is getting old and fat and sad cause no one pays attention to her anymore. Still haven't gotten my damn drivers license. Mom's always gone so she cant take me. Dad's always at work so he can't take me. I can't wait to get out of here. 18'th birthday is in August. Still don't have money to move so I'm screwed/doomed. We are all out of root beer. Mom hides Jack Daniels in the kitchen that I steal sips out of occasionally but I can't do it too much or they'll start to notice. I got a new toothbrush. It's electrical. Things so powerfull feels like it's going to vibrate my damned head off. um... I got my hair cut. It's now above me shoulders. I've been with my boyfriend for 2 years and 5 days, that makes me very happy. My leg hurts from pressing it against my desk but it's the only way I like to sit in my chair so screw it.... Made some cool new pictures and worked on logos for a business. Did over 30 of them so hopefully they will like at least one. I miss my boyfriend like crazy even though he's only been gone for 4 days and I know I'll be seeing him in about a week. It still sucks balls being away from him. Nights are lonely and in the mornings I have to rack my brains to find a reason to get up. Usually the only one I can come up with is the fact that I have to pee. I can't wait to see Jacob again for his b-day! Fun Fun... we're gonna go to IHOP at like 1:00 in the morning on someday just to eat some pancakes so that's gonna w00t-full. I'm ramballing but I don't really care anymore. I got a Snoopy stuffed animal and a stuffed Peeps thingy for easter from Jacob. Made me so happy! Good Morning. And in case I don't see ya. Good Afternoon Good Evening and Good Night. ~Elizabeth P. http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/324 http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/324 http://www.deviantart.com/deviation/324 | ||||||||||
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>.< ickyFebruary 16th, 2006
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| Yeah so... hey everybody what's up!? I know no one is going to comment on this but I figured, what the hell. I might as well put something in here because I have the freaking account. Yes... well... I'm done... now. Happy late Valentine's Day. <3 | ||||||||||
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o.OOctober 24th, 2005
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| I really hate my schools computers. They won't let you open chat rooms or anything. So I am stuck all alone at school with no one to talk to because I have no friends. :-( Oh well... I have a test in like 20 minutes that I am going to fail. It is a stupid Europe test where you have to fill out a map of Europe. Apparently everybody that took it failed it so I at least wont be the only one. I am probably going to make a big fat ZERO! I sound so happy don't I? Bleh... I dun't really care cause I'mjust a hopeless teenager filled with angst. WHEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!! School sucks.... I'm going to go fail that test now.... toodles | ||||||||||
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mmmmm... ToastOctober 16th, 2005
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| Well it's been a long time since I have been on here so I figured I would post something. My boyfriend just left my house and I feel so alone. It sucks being alone. I won't be able to see him for 3 weeks now so that really sucks. I hate going to high school. The only thing that is worse than high school in Fayette is having to say good-bye to Jacob (my boyfriend) when he leaves and not being able to see him for a long time. I got to play with crabs this weekend at the mall in Tuscaloosa. It was pretty cool. I had a lot of fun. I probably should be doing my Biology and English homework but that crap is so boring I really don't want to. I went to the park today here in Fayette and it was fun. I got to pet a horse and go for a long walk. I looked at a tank at the armory. It was cool. I had a pretty fun weekend. Well.... that's it... for now... Toodles! | ||||||||||
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PoopieJune 6th, 2005
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| damn it!! i hate not having friends!! people automatically hate me right when they see me so needless to say i have very little friends... in fact i only have one friend that i can actually see and that is my boyfriend. and it sucks that he lives a full freaking 5 hours away.. grrr!! god this is so annoying!! i hate my life!! i have no one to hang out with and im terrified of driving so i cant go anywhere and i live in a crappy ass town in alabama with a wal-mart that only has one door and... grr!!! its so frusterating!!! i hate not having friends. i hate having people hate me right when they meet me. no matter what i do people always seem to hate me for some reason. life sucks monkey balls!! *dies* grrrrrrrrrrrr-ness | ||||||||||
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argh!!!June 3rd, 2005
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| 1. What is your name? Elizabeth 2. What city and state you were born in? Meridian, Mississippi 3. What is your hair color? Brown 4. What is your eye color? Greenish somethin’ 5. What color underwear are you wearing now? None of your business 6. What are you listening to right now? Ian Brown – “ Set My Baby Free� 7. What was the last thing you ate? Beats me… I think maybe a sandwich? 8. What books are you reading (if any)? A book about stars and planets. 9. What is the first thing you notice about the opposite/same (if you're gay) sex? Their eyes and their smile 10. What do you usually say when you wake up in the morning? Tell morning to come back later? 11. What did you do when you woke up this morning? Thought about calling Jacob but then remembered that I got grounded from the phone just cause I didn’t wash the dishes. 12. What's on your desk? Oh god lots of stuff, but in general: My computer, my printer, my white karate belt, mp3 CD player, a pretty horse figurine, my phone, a little wicker basket with some random stuff in it, picture of Jacob, and usually my feet. 13. What's on your mouse pad? My mouse 14. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? Jacob 15. Who is one of the most important people in your life and why? Jacob because he has made such an important impact on my life and I love him more than anything. 16. Does anyone inspire you? If so who? Yes, my karate teacher Ms. White, and my boyfriend Jacob. 17. When was the last time you danced in the rain? Last year I think 18. If you were a crayon what color would you be? Dark Green or Dark Blue 19. How many pillows and stuffed animals do you sleep with? Two or three pillows, and about 4 or five stuffed animals(My big three foot tall valentines bear, a red dog I like to call Clifford, a little brown teddy bear, and a smaller white teddy bear that has a little heart shaped pillow thing in the front that says “I Love You�) and my cat Loki (she’s not a pillow or a stuffed animal but I do sleep wif her) 20. How is the weather right now? Rainy and gloomy like always 21. Have you ever lost someone really close to you? Do pets count? If pets count then yes… many 22. Are you in love with someone? If so who? Absolutly!! I am in love with my boyfriend. :loved: 23. Do you wear contacts? Nopity nope nopers 24. Do you like to travel by plane? Never have in fact I very rarely ever travel 25. Do you still talk to your best friends from middle school? I only had one and she turned into a whore so no I don’t talk to her anymore. 26. Favorite Food? Jacob’s chicken parmesan, yum yum 27. Favorite Drink? Water I guess. 28. Favorite Alcoholic Drink? Don’t drink that much so I don’t really have one. 29. Favorite place to shop? I don’t shop that much so I don’t have a favorite place… but if I had to name one I’d probably say Spencers 30. Favorite month? March I guess 31. Favorite Day of the Year? April 23 :D 32. Favorite Fast Food? Taco Bell or Burger King 33. Right-handed or Left-handed? I guess both but if you are talking writing then I’m a rightie 34. Smooth or Chunky Peanut Butter? Smooth 35. Top or Bottom? Exactly 36. Movies or Music? Music 37. Concert or Symphony? Depends on who’s playing 38. Play or Opera? Play definitely 39. Summer or Winter? Winter 40. Hugs or Kisses? Can I have both? 41. Chocolate or Vanilla? Vanilla ( you can turn it into chocolate) 42. Paper or Plastic? Plastic I suppose 43. Fast or Slow? Both are okay 44. Dogs or cats? Dogs are good but cats are better 45. Favorite TV Shows? Star Trek, Family Guy, and my so called “pussy drama� Strong Medicine. 46. Favorite board game? Can’t say I have one 47. Favorite Author? Can’t say I have one of those either 48. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? Butter and Salted! 49. Favorite Flower? Spider Lilly 50. How long did it take you to do this? How the hell should I know?! | ||||||||||
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Pink!! Bet you'd never guess that i loath the color pink... well i do... its only the combination of black and hot pink that i like so yeah. w00t for me!! i'm the coolest! MEEEH!!! Your Element Is Dark. Dark brought the land well...darkness. Darkness is beauty also! The Dark Element is forever at a battle with the Light Element. Dark isn't evil,just is treated differently than others,she wants justice and rights. Being a Dark Element you are fasinated with dark creatures like werewolves and vampires. People think you're evil,but that isn't true. You are just different than most. If somebody took the time to observe Dark,the beauty of the night is wonderful. Dark is a loner,probulay cause she likes her own company. Being the Dark Element you are talented artistic wise and prefer your own companty than others. Congrads! There aren't many like you! Feel special! ^^ What Element Are You? For Girls only! Lovely Anime Pictures! brought to you by Quizilla | ||||||||||
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| Why is my dad so obsessed with shooting poor innocent little animals? He keeps shooting these harmless defenseless little animals and they haven’t done a thing to him! Just because a little puppy comes to our house and he doesn’t want it doesn’t give him any reason to shoot it! It doesn’t! It’s senseless. Just because he doesn’t want it doesn’t mean that no one else wants it either. What is with you dad!? How can you shoot something as sweet and innocent as a puppy? It hasn’t hurt you or anyone else so why - shoot it? It is so stupid to just shoot an animal just cause you don’t want it around. Find someone that wants a puppy or something for god’s sake! Just give the poor puppy a chance! You are such a freaking animal abuser! You shot my dog! I was just a little girl and it was the only dog that I had ever had that hadn’t died two weeks after we got it. And you just shot it cause it followed you around. It’s a dog! It was just a dog! You shot my dog! I hate you for that and I always will. I will never forgive you for that because you don’t deserve forgiveness. You don’t deserve forgiveness anymore than that dog deserved to be shot. And you got Uncle Ken to shoot my cat! My sweet little cat! You shot her just cause she was stupid! What kind of an excuse is that huh? I’m not that smart so why don’t you just shoot me? Go ahead and shoot me see if I care. Wouldn’t surprise one bit if you did. Your just a stupid farmer with no heart that loves to shoot innocent sweet little puppy dogs and other animals. And you sure seem to like doing it even better when they are mine. As long as it isn’t your animal it is obviously okay to just shoot away. Do you have any idea how much you hurt me? You know you could have at least had the decency to tell me that I couldn’t have the animal anymore and tried to find someone that would want it. But no you didn’t even consult me. It’s almost like I don’t even exist to you people. It’s like I’m your little experiment to see just how much a person can take before they snap and kill themselves. Well I’ll tell yah… I’ve almost gotten to that point. I’ve almost killed myself so many times. But you wouldn’t know that of course because I was always afraid that if I told you that you’d just go ahead and kill me so that I wouldn’t have to do it. And the only reason I didn’t kill myself is because I knew that if I did that then you would just get off easy and you wouldn’t have to put up with my crap anymore. And I also just didn’t feel like dying cause if I did that then that would mean that you would have won. You would have beaten me down and you would have had control over me. I knew I couldn’t let that happen. I wouldn’t let you do that to me.I hope to god that I’m not like you when I become a parent. I am going to try my hardest to not become you. Both of you are the epitome of everything that I hate. You are the embodiment of everything that I don’t want to become. And I am going to make sure that when I have children I am going to always think of them and how they feel before myself. And I know right now that it isn’t going to be easy but hey at least I am going to try harder than you people ever did. I’m not going to just ignore my children and make them feel like every bad thing that happens is their fault. And I am sure as hell not going to senselessly murder their pets!! I’ll make damn sure that that never happens. I’m going to be so much better than you. You just watch. You may not be proud of me but that’s just fine with me because I don’t want you to be proud of me anymore. Because I realize now that there is no way that I will ever be able to make either of you happy. You two want a perfect little girl but that’s not what I am. I don’t want to be perfect anymore. I’m just fine the way that I am right now. I have no idea what your idea of perfect is but I’m almost positive that I don’t want to be it. No, I am positive that I don’t want to be it. You both are such ass holes! I never get respect. You never listen to me so you never give me a fair trial. And you don’t care if I’m happy or not. Just as long as I pretend and smile, then everything is just peachy to you people. And you know what kills me is that you don’t have any respect for my feelings. You don’t care how much the things you do hurt me. And you are both so narcissistic that I don’t even think that you know that it does hurt me. You both get so wrapped up in yourselves that it seems like I just cease to exist. It’s honestly like I’m not even here. Good grief can’t this family just have one day where no body is mad at anybody and the pain and the screaming and the crying isn't around here for just one day? You have no idea how many nights I lay crying silently in my bed so I can get to sleep and get to that place in my dreams where I’m safe and I don’t feel so alone. Ever since we moved you both have gotten so mean. It’s like life is all about you 110% of the time. Not like it wasn’t like that before we moved but it’s just gotten worse. And of course if you were reading this right now you probably would be disagreeing with everything that I have said and would probably just start thinking that it’s me with the problem and I’m the one that’s conceded and self-centered and everything is, of course, my fault. Just like everything has apparently been my fault since the day I was born… No probably more like, since the day I was conceived. Because I’m pretty sure that you think that I was the cause of all your problems since before I was even born. It has gotten to the point where I am afraid to come out of my room for fear that you will blame something that hasn’t even happened yet on me. I am even afraid to move around in my room because I think that somehow my moving will trigger something and then something else will happen and it will some how miraculously be my fault. Oh how I wish you could read this. Then maybe you might understand just a little but about how I feel but for some reason I believe that it wouldn’t help anything it would probably just make things worse. At times I just wish that you would just go ahead and blow up and lose your temper and hit me or punch me or something and then I could file child abuse charges against you and get taken to a foster family. But that probably wouldn’t work out that well either cause then I’d probably be stuck with going to live with one of my screwed up Mennonite relatives. And that would of course be worse than living here with you people. Heh… its kind of funny to think that something could be worse than living here. Cause in order for that to happen that would mean that something out there had to be as close to a living hell as you could get. Because that is basically what living here is like. It is basically a living hell. So thanks mom and dad. Thank you for both caring so much about me! I love you both so much it just makes me wanna scream. Go to hell both of you ~ Elizabeth Statistics show that 10,000 people are killed by liquor where only one is killed by a mad dog; yet we shoot the dog and license liquor. What sense is there to this? | ||||||||||
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